Bom gente. Estarei sem internet para os próximos dias. Então, estou fazendo minha despedida agora.
I will be without Internet for a little while, so I am saying goodbye now.
I cannot live in the present. All these dates and plans swimming around in my head...for the last month I have been obsessed with June 22nd, the day I move out. Now that it's here, I am obsessed with the date I return. Then the date I get to camp. Then the date I'm back in Boston.
And each morning I wake up and think: ok ten more days til then. 15 til then. And it is such all throughout the day.
Fuck!
I just can't wait until AUGUST 11TH when I am SETTLED in ONE PLACE, MY HOME. Gosh! I have a great summer lined up...but I want to be immobile. I am done with traveling for a bit. Let's hope to God once I am there I don't start thinking: ok 3 months til Thanksgiving....
Anyways. Presence is one of my many difficulties right now, that and not being self-destructive in order to deal with my anger.
Well. I hate goodbyes. I really do. But I awr-e-y gone.
O Brasil: Você tinha me tratado muito bem. E às vezes, porque morar aqui nas suas fronteiras pode ser TÃO difícil para um estrangeiro, eu tenho que te agradecer--porque eu nunca aprendia nem crescia mais na minha vida inteira. Obrigado, viu? Saudades já.
Porra! Que emoção.....
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